My Mistakes!

I have been pondering since so many years about a peculiar side that exists in me. It is nothing but I do mistakes but I generally I don't think it as a mistake. Our elders used to say that by doing many mistakes, u may discover a solution, a thing or a probably a miracle. I am struggling why it is not happening with me! I am still confused what an attitude I have? I spent my life in doing mistakes rather correcting them, when I try to correct them…err!!my soul says..common!it won’t happen..we shouldn't brood over past mistakes!! (only this)..it won’t say “don’t repeat them in future”..if it happens again…Err!I don’t have answer to this…and it will be a new mistake again :)

And yeah, all the mistakes I make/made/will make (:) :( ) were/are/will be stupid!!

One day I was travelling alone in a bus to Pilani from Gurgaon at night…I know that a girl should not dare to take risk, even though I did not stop… I always prepare for the best :) instead of preparing for the worst J!!Bus got broke down at a remote area, it was 8.15 PM and it was raining :) I went by a sharing auto to some place and caught a bus then. Thank God, nothing worst happened!

Is it a mistake?or an accident? Am I wrong as I did not prepare for the worst?

One day I was going to Mumbai Central mall, I left my bag where my wallet+ipod+my mobile phones+ATM cards+my collections near security thinking that no body steal anything from security… :) unfortunately, I lost my wallet and when I gave a complaint, there were no cameras to find out the thief :) Enjoy!!

Not once, many times I booked movie/train/bus tickets on a wrong date :)

I go on recharging a wrong mobile number (I usually forget my number). I go out in the nights to have Pani Puri/ice creams/pulpy orange :)

One day, my roommate’s friend came to spend her weekend with us. She put her mobile in Jeans back pocket and while sleeping, she hanged that pant over a window..the time was 1.30 PM..the mobile went and got dropped on the top of another window in second floor where we stay at 3^rd floor. Since its beyond our hands, we got a stick (not to pick it :)) to pull it down to the ground floor! And my roommate was ready with a long stick to pull.. NOTE: The mobile would go and drop in the parking area at ground floor after pulling..so, we got a big bed sheet, went down to ground floor, jumped to parking side, opened that bed sheet and said “Get Set Go Start..Pull” she moved it… :) unfortunately, we could not see the mobile any more, it went and fell on some other side, broken into several pieces!!I am the big culprit here.. I only gave all these ideas!

I happily sleep while traveling no matter on what mode (bus/train/flight/auto/bike) I am traveling I just sleep..some times, it will end up in reaching a wrong destination

One more about my mobile here :)

http://coolhoneyhere.blogspot.com/2008/12/tragedy-of-my-mobile.html

lost my id card :)

http://coolhoneyhere.blogspot.com/2008/12/height-of-stupidity.html

Recently I lost my wallet again, my chappals and the list goes on...

I open all the ways to lose my things! I guess I am very careless/stupid… I don’t know :(

Some many of my friends tried to change me, tried to make me understand, worried for me, lectured me,..All these things happened not once but many times, I learnt so much and I m enlightened enough to be careful!! I don't know where I am going wrong? Is it my fate? (big dialogue) but I cannot stop the things that are gonna happening!!

The purpose of this post is not to meant I am wrong, I do wrong, it is just a sharing of my strange character :)

In spite of all this, I just enjoy my life!!I rock always :)

cheers!

:(

Not every bad mood has a reason, not every bad reason makes a bad day!
A day with few expressed words like
Good Morning!!
Wats up??
Take Care.. but with many unuttered words compelling my mind into pensive mood;
I know I can feel bad when I get in a bad mood. Or...
Because it may not be a bad time, I may have to feel happy?
I don't know :( I am not very sure! I am mad!
In reality, there are good and bad times, our mood changes more often than our fortune
Certainly, it was an (un)easy day!

Me and My marriage

Mom: so, madhu..how r u..howz life thr??(general talk)
Me: nothing great.., as usual!!
Mom: R u eating properly??Is everything fine??hv u gained some weight or u r still scrawny?
Me: :P hehe..never, I am around 46-48, i never checked it !! :( :(
Mom: Papa is asking about ur height tooo...
Me: whats dis stupid question., as if he doesn't know :P
Mom: Its 5'4 right??
Me:Moooom, stop it naa.., is thr any purpose behind asking all these nonsense?

(perhaps, they are in search of a guy for me :(!!...........)
Mom: he is taking some health and LIC insurance on ur name., nothing else!!
chalo, leave it..how abt that amla powder??ur using it??
Me: haaan, y not.,.I am eating it everyday :D (thank god, its fine now, I was scared)
Mom: what????that's for ur hair!!u r eating it??
Me: oooh....that one!!ya ya I am applying to it in the every weekend..u know mom.., even my friends are asking for it...its too good, my hair is looking gorgeous now :P ( haha...I have thrown it somewhere...yirr ;) !!)
Mom: okay then, take care darling
Me: bbyee...


(Next day)

Dad: I have taken LIC and medical insurance on ur name!!
Me: ur wish, I don't know about them...mom told me about this last nite.
Dad: Mom is missing u badly, she wants u to come home once..
Me: ooh so sad papa..., even I too miss u both..
Mom: Madhu, get ur snaps while coming home
Me(in anger): what do u mean???y do u need it?
Mom: Papa told about LIC policy...n blah,,,
Me: shut up, he has many of my passport sized photographs wid him
Mom: no...actually we need ur nice snaps in saree... I guess quite a few are there in your lapi??
Me: No, what the hell is goin on.., why shud I get u.., U temme d exact purpose?I hope u understood.
Mom: why are you shouting like dog? If we are in need of somethings, we are supposed to show u d reasons??
Me: yeah,, Don't act smart.., U ppl have gone mad.., I don't have any pics of mine.., listen to me: Even if have some nice pics, I am right now gonna shift+del them!!
Mom: don't talk to me anymore..don't come to home..
Me: woow...I love u.., I am not desperate to come there. I will cancel my tickets tomorrow.
a couple of minutes passed,

hmm.., I realised that I bristled and shouted at her., lets call her and ask her to forgive me. :D

Me: hello Papa, hows is mom, she is angry still?
Papa: nope, she is sleeping
Me: I wanna talk to her, call her once.
Papa: don't be panic .., U come here we will discuss everything in home!!

Take a chill pill darling, cool and relax.
Me: enough, call mommmm.........
Mom: haan, had food?...blah blah...
Me: r u fine?u r still angry on me?
Mom:I am not angry any more,,in fact u were angry!! so, tomorrow go to some studio., and send us some saree snaps.. okay?

(aaah godddddddd...again!!!!)
Me: chi, go to hell!! I am stupid,, unnecessarily I called u again!look.., U knw, I don't have sarees wid me..,haan whats d use I don't even know wearing them.. cha, cha, first of all I don't have time here to dress up well myself and going after that studios., I am extremely busy!! I am sorry..I can't!!

(what a poor apology.., in spite of asking for excuse, I again erupted like volcano..I am short tempered!! I am hapless at my madcap attitude)

I am just 21. I am still a naughty kid, why don't you people fathom my babyhood. ? what is the need of getting me married with such great haste and hurry ?? I guess both of you are not having any work!!cha, till now, I thought I am blessed having both of you sweet parents!!I am feeling bad now, I never know that I will be in such melancholy situation, I am not ready for marriage yet..!!

Papa, u r my dearest friend.. you are the one who gave me all the freedom and all the life I wanted or I wished, you also know that I am a simpleton piece so you are bothered about me, naturally you are the one who ponders alot on my future, u will be miffed as well as worried, if I face anything worse ahead in my life!!I understand all this, but this is not an apt time for my marriage..!!see, I am pretty good at persuading you, I am sure that I can convince you once I come there. I will be delighted if u listen to me..!! I am coming to meet you in soon.

Oh my god, help me that

I get no angry,

I stay calm, blissful and happy,

I get strength to raise mind high above daily trifles.,

I do my best to all the things without thinking of any fruit!!

Love you Jesus!!

I prayed my lord to look at my unbridled emotions and I slept. I am sorry if I hurt anyone, and I am sorry at this weird thoughts!!

P.S: I was extremely angry on my sweet stupid as he was making fun of my parents when I briefed it to him., (of course, he is there for me :) :), who is meticulously logical..Name a problem, he will be with an answer)and thanks to Tarun, you gave me an apt name and apt solution to this post.

Why do we shout in anger?

Though sometimes people knew that mistake is from their own side (...I especially), still we scream and scold the opposite one!!!

I guess this is the apt reason why we shout when we are totally enraged!!

A saint asked his disciples: 'Why do we shout in anger? Why do people shout at each other when they are upset?'
Disciples thought for a while, one of them said: 'Because we lose our calm, we shout for that.'
'But, why to shout when the other person is just next to you?' asked the saint.
'Isn't it possible to speak to him or her with a soft voice? Why do you shout at a person when you're angry?'
Disciples gave some other answers but none satisfied the saint.

Finally he explained:
'When two people are angry at each other, their hearts distance a lot. To cover that distance they must shout to be able to hear each other. The angrier they are, the stronger they will have to shout to hear each other through that great distance.'

Then the saint asked:
'What happens when two people fall in love? They don't shout at each other but talk softly, why? Because their hearts are very close. The distance between them is very small...'

The saint continued:
'When they love each other even more, what happens? They do not speak, only whisper and they get even closer to each other in their love. Finally they even need not whisper, they only look at each other and that's all. That is how close two people are when they love each other.'


MORAL:

When you argue do not let your hearts get distant, do not say words that distance each other more, else there will come a day when the distance is so great that you will not find the path to return.

So, the words once spoken cannot be unspoken and like wise, the heart once broken cannot be unbroken .

such is life.


Cheers!!

Death by Chocolate

I am glad to indite again about chocolates on my blog!!

Adding to my weekend thrills, yesterday Tarun and I have gone to city for some work and after finishing it, to fill our paunches :P , we went to a bakery. While stepping into the bakery, I started eyeing on Death by chocolate. It is a mouth watering cake enriched with dark brown color, three layered chocolate where it is floated in a chocolate sauce.. :) It looked too appetizing and tempted us to order. Actually when the waiter brought it, Tarun said that the plate was too beautiful :) but he came to know that it is not plate, it is chocolate sauce when he touched it. We really enjoyed eating and licking it. :) :) and I just loved it and I wanna die for it.

Now, one more is added to my menu!! Life is like a box of chocolates - full of nuts!

my tips for dieting:

• Don't ever eat one chocolate, have two!! you feel better.
• Drink 4-5 glasses of chocolate sauce every day and improve your figure.
• Have a chocolate shake before sleeping.
  

Death by Chocolate sings - "If I must die, let it be death by chocolate"

Cheers!!

bye shoppe :(

its so pretty,
this color is trendy,
i guess it suits me well,,
i never tried this stuff,..huh..,
its making me happy...., chalo I will buy it!!

I suddenly get a fits attack often when I come across a cute skirt, lovely top or a pair of chappals.!!my muscles start jerking me to take that on what I had set my eyes on.

I am a shopaholic, I have no self control, I would go on dreaming about it, I think million of times, i don't have this colored one, I can wear it at many occasions, and finally I soothe my nerves by buying it. I have nearly 100 dresses to satisfy me still I go nuts behind this shopping..,I had squandered nearly 45k in one month for shopping, sounds crazy?? of course I knew, nobody can stop me from it whenever i see a mall, I feel it as a paradise, I enjoy buying all accessories no matter whether it's needed or not,but!!!(I decided)

don't think that I am well-heeled :P, company is paying me more than enough money just for my signature :) :) but due to some problems, I got my salary after 3 months, I have taken lots of money from people, probably this restricted me not to buy any more things..!!and this realized me the importance of money!!!so..

yup.., I have decided to stop shopping at least till my birthday (except one wallet and a pair of chappal :P). I will try my maximum to stick on to my words..., :) but I am not sure as there are many events coming ahead valentine's day :P, anniversary :P,
.........chalo, Lets see what will happen!!!

Cheers!!

kuch tho hua hain!!

When I heard that somebody take more time to sleep after lying on the bed, I laughed at them and thought them as fools as those guys might be over worried about the next day or may be their brains are accessing the issues that are running through out the day. I had this opinion because I never faced this kind of situation and rather I will have a nap when I get short span of time.

Something is happening!!
But for last few days, things have become different. I have been spending sleepless nights and I am missing my beauty sleep. My beauty sleep is like: Going to bed at late night, in a rested and perfectly happy mood, sleeping all through the night, warm bed sheet, cool temperature, my pillows just fluffy enough and waking up when my cell alarms. Instead of this, yesterday when I was lying on my bed, I did not feel like sleeping at 12'o clock. So, I went, I took my laptop, I watched a movie which I in fact had seen it for more than 100 times. I tried hard to sleep and as again I failed, I thought I would have tried to think of some work that makes me tired and drives me to sleep. Anyways, I tried that later and I got more things to do. Then I opened my beautiful bag :) for nano Ipod, I connected it to laptop. Actually, I was unable to fetch time for synchronizing it, so finally I succeeded in doing that.

After doing all these stupid things, the time was 2.30 A.M. So, again I tried badly to sleep, that was a poor try, I failed again :P. Then I got up seriously, I mixed two colors of nail polish and applied to my fingers. Thank god, nobody noticed it, it was looking weird. I was hungry, ate horlicks. I have gone mad, that time balance in my mobile was Rs. 0.08, otherwise I would have disturbed some innocent fellows. Still I had an option to disturb my boyfriend as I had reliance. I am grateful to Reliance. I already disturbed him many times and I allowed him to sleep as he was extremely exhausted. But this time the devil rose and the level of madness was burst and it compelled me to disturb my love. So, I called him. He is the sweetest hunk, as he understood my problem, he talked to me for sometime and finally he made me to sleep. I guess I slept at around 4.00 A.M.

The reason behind my unusual insomniac nights is "SOMETHING". That something could be both sadness and happiness. Sadness is because of leaving STC (STC sickness :P) and happiness is because of going to Bangalore. I think I would have done something good in past because whenever I wish a thing, that will happen somehow. Thing is if I really want something, I will get it. :) :P. I madly wished to go to Bangalore, I got posting over there and I will be going there in couple of days. I am fortunate enough to turn up the things into my favor, will and wish. ATTITUDE RELOADED!!!!