0.5 kg

Today, I was feeling a bit low, I guess I am sad ….. not because someone ate my chocolates, not because somebody commented me, not because I could not resolve an issue, not because I got some pimples, not because I lost some money, not because I got up early, not because I did some stupid thing; haan, BUT....because I have not reached my target :(

Yes, I have a set a new target / resolution / goal which sounds pretty simple and crazy but indeed, it's the most hardest thing for the one who is actually involved to achieve it.

Now, here comes my target – to gain a weight of 0.5 KG in 2 weeks.

Ooouch!!!Please don’t start blaming me now!!Believe me, it’s not as easy as it sounds, I have been facing this issue since few years and but I would always fail and lose confidence :(

I try a lot to put on where as many try a lot to put off, but every time I fail. Not this time, trust me, I had set this point many times. Integer 50 is my target. my weight fluctuates always in between 47-49. I reach till 49 but I could never cross or touch that integer, I am scared of it and I have started hating that value.

In the first week of Jan, I had checked my weight and it was 49.5 kgs, to my surprise, it was 49.5..felt little happy and So, I had decided to increase my weight by 0.5 kg rather than truncating it to 50.

As it was an easy thing since I had crossed 49 and I have got two weeks of time, I thought I would definitely win in this case as it's a matter of silly 0.5 kg and achieve my target for sure.

Now, two weeks were over, I went thinking I would win today and checked……waaa :( :( Contrary to this, I flunked again. Perhaps it’s all because of me. Frankly speaking, I don’t follow up a good diet regularly.

First of all, If I have to brief out my every day diet, I guess most of you feel I am very peculiar, yes I am.

I am like a camel, I eat one time in a day, it may be during breakfast/ lunch/ snacks/dinner…

Believe me just one time or maximum two times….but I eat a lot of food till my tummy screams ..Enough! No more no more!! And I don’t have after that.

Sometimes, I have a lot of junk foods say maggi, burger, pizza, pani poori, samosa, cutlet….all etc….despite having rice/chapathi. And whatever food I cook/make/prepare, I use a big amount of ghee, butter and oil :) (cholesterol full ).

Huh!! but what’s the use? all my plenty number of efforts just went in vain. But, I will not give this up and I will definitely win one fine day.

There is a known saying - Try and Try until u succeed. I hereby say, I will again try by taking two more weeks period and I will definitely win this time by reaching 50. I have got all the required ingredients ;) Before writing this post, I went to Spencers and got lots of maggi, fruits, Horlicks, eggs :) :) (that’s the spirit) and I swear that I will sincerely work hard and will triumph over this mark.

Tring,tring!!

rooba rooba roo... (my mobile's ringtone...it's ringing)

me: Hello!

X: Maam, Is this Madhuri?

me: Yes

X: This is vignesh, you got a parcel, Could u please come to reception?

me: Sure

X: mam, security guys stopping to enter inside, they are facing problems with the pack, some beep sound is coming, could u please come now/?

me: yep..hold on!

At that moment, many set of feelings doodled in my brain like anxiety / cheerfulness /sorrow /tension / fear and soon..

Frankly speaking, I was not much excited because I already know it, but I was very much pleased to hear about the present since it was the most awaited one after a long time. And you know how glad it would be to welcome a day with a gift and that too with chocolates, I guess, chocolates are the best gift in this world, I believe them as the symbol of love, care and affection.

Of course, I was sad, completely worried… why because, I was very sure that if at all my colleagues notice that pack, that’s it..; I would end up in accumulating the wrappers rather than the original pack. I had many bitter experiences when I was in my training, One monkey used to grab all my choclates… (;)) and Tarun used to strive hard to get back for me somehow J . And yeah, Fear…I was little afraid not because of beep sound coming, but because I was pretty sure that all the chocolates would get melted. What a moment it was…!!

I reached Reception, it was occupied by many people, as I cannot recognize that guy, I gave a call to him and yeah there he was, he waived his hand and handed me that parcel, but the person near security was so much scared thinking it was some atom bomb :D . He wanted me to open it in front of him to make sure that everything must be alright. I told him that he need not worry as I don't have any such friends who will take revenge on me. But he denied and said, of, course we should not suspect friends but republic day is near, .so we cannot trust anybody...then immediately my reaction was – what the hell? It’s chennai,..anyways, hehe I convinced him saying I don’t have any such friends who try to kill me at least in such a rich style. I opened it….smile smile smile………..!! everybody was smiling J kisses chocolates (that silver wrapper must was responsible for that beep sound), lite… I was busy in eating them :) :) lol………………….btw, million thanks to the special sender :) ;)